the feel noon 12pm

i writing blog again.. cuz i have no place to go anymore.. i did try 2 post on fb.. but i dowan her 2 know.. haha.. damn silly, stupid, assed hole, noob, f***up i'm.. hahahahahaha.. somehow.. her door is still shut in some where..

is the same thing will happen to me every time?
today.. she post this is her blog

今天。。
不懂怎么了。。
心里有一种很难说出口的思念。。
我在思念着谁呢？？
怎么会有这样的一个冲动？？
心里收了很多很多不可告人的秘密。。
我要收到几时呢？？
收到我离开为止？？
还是。。
呵呵。。
我很累很想哭。。
真的很想哭。。
我很想很想他在。。
哭泣。。

the 1 she is thinking.. i dunno izit me..
the 1 she wan 2 be her side.. i dunno izit me..
these 2 thing weather izit me its nvm.... but the thing she is keeping.. making her sad n feel bad.. i really wanna know..

i'm freeking confused now.. i'm empty now.. i'm so empty.. suddenly i feel like i'm alone again.... these feeling.. can i juz kill them off? by any chance.. kill my self?..

i'm posting here cuz.. i dint wan her 2 know.. but somewhere in my heart.. i wan her 2 know.. mayb is bcuz the lonely i have now.. she... its always she.. y she.. y..... arghhhhhh.. freaking heart pain.. bloody heart.. she is sad.. i'm keeping my feel of sad 2 cheer her bac.. y i have 2 do these when i'm sad too.. is there any1 that can really cheer me when i'm sad too? A!!!!! shit!! freaking pain u shitty heart.. noob human!.. i'm going 2 c her later.. hope all these will end